remote control

So we know that we're not going to see each other any time soon

He says we'll have to get creative
that we'll need to figure it out

but

I don't think that means a visit
I think it means more control

remotely

not his favorite thing

not my favorite thing

but what we have

Sunday morning I was being a needy girl
he tested me a bit

to see if I was garden variety needy
or
drippy slutty needy

it was B

I was begging

begging for pain
begging for pleasure

open for one or the other

hoping for both

he had me put on the clamps
and chatted with me a bit

he painted a picture of pinning me down
and fucking my throat

something he knows I fear
he laid me on my back
thighs spread
head hanging off the bed

had me imagine having my throat fucked
while he takes the crop to my cunt

He gave me premission cum all I want
as long I don't touch myself

I struggled -- so close

so difficult with my legs apart

Look at me and remember what it is that makes you cum.  It is not a toy or a word, it is my will and ownership of you

I managed it

and he told me I wasn't done

he had me ride the vibe -- as if it were his cock
on top
and called me

sending me over the edge
until I was covered in sweat -- exhausted

finally listening to him join me in relief

and I suppose this is how we will manage the long weeks between visits

we'll amp it up

giving me the pain I need
the control he needs

keeping us close

and I know I'm spoiled.  There are so many of you who do it this way all the time
who rarely if ever meet.

and I'm grateful that he's working to give me what I need -- even though I think he's somewhat indifferent to the remote control

he's not indifferent to having me crave him
be his craven slut

no

not indifferent at all

and eventually -- we'll be together again.