Sometimes my job makes me feel so helpless.
I'm stuck
I'm only allowed to do so much
meddle so much
help so much
and then my hands are tied.
I have an employee
and she's
well -- she's broken
another employee came to me today and told me that someone
someone needs to talk to her
because there's something horribly wrong
and I know
I know that things are bad for her
that she's holding onto this life by the fingernails
barely
barely holding on
when she's up -- she's very very up
but now?
now she's down
and she won't go get help
she refuses.
today
today she wouldn't even look me in the eyes
I took her aside to talk to her
and she wouldn't look at me
she talked and talked
and cried
and talked
but
she's not talking to me
she's
she's alone
and
she can't feel me
she can't feel anyone
She talks about ending it
leaving it all behind
and I beg her to get help
reach out
I try to make her promise not to hurt herself
and she tells me not to worry
but she didn't promise.
I tried everything I could think of
finally
the most I could get her to commit to
was a promise
to make it to tomorrow.
that she could promise me
that I would see her tomorrow.
and tomorrow -- I will try again to get her to accept help
and tomorrow -- I will get her to promise that I will see her the next day
what else can I do
I can't imagine what else you could do. It sounds like you're done everything you possibly can.
ReplyDeleteShe's lucky to have someone around who's so sympathetic and understanding. And caring.
And call me or email me if you want to.
hugs,
aisha
I don't know... could you a) call the police or her mom or her husband or a friend? or b) fix her problems? If not, then I think you have done what you can, and you keep doing it...
ReplyDeleteAnd my first impulse was to say ask Aisha, she'll know if you can do more, and what to do.
Good luck.
-sin
@Aisha -- thanks -- I needed to hear that
ReplyDelete@Sin -- my hands are tied on this one -- unless she makes an overt threat -- and even then -- I'm her employer -- I can't interfere in her life -- I can just make sure she knows how to get help
it's hard.
What Aisha said.
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like you are doing everything you can, and more than many people would.
By being persistent and showing her that you personally want to see her tomorrow, and the day after, and the day after, and so on, you might just break through.
Praying for you big sis.
What an awful situation for both of you.
ReplyDeleteIt's wonderful that you care enough to try to break through.