Morning Torture

I woke up all hot steamy and damp

not quite sure what I was dreaming of
but I was ready

5:11
too early

I rolled onto my stomach
and tried to get back to sleep

my PJ bottoms bunched a bit between my legs
and I realize
that

I am clenching my pussy together
and could cum

right there
no touching

just
right on the edge -- if I willed myself to

and I started to torture myself more with little fantasies

vignettes

as I rock into the mattress
it's banned you know

no cumming without him

and that's off until Saturday via phone

and yet

I'm bargaining with myself

"It's not the same if it happens on its own"

"I mean -- what if I did it in my sleep?  that wouldn't be cheating"

my brain is coming up with bigger and dirtier fantasies

until I'm right at the point of no return

I get up
and go to the bathroom
and then go get my laptop

to email my dirty fantasies off to him

he'll like that
no sweet cuddly email
but a hot one

covered in need

I wrote until I mangaged to make myself a bit late today

more torture -but still compliant -- by a hair.

craven cunt.