What's the what with sfp and M

So by the time this posts

I don't know who we'll be

but right now -- I'm writing this on Wednesday night -- and M and I are just trying to figure it out what we're going to be

Here's what I have asked in a nutshell

to look at the three things we both need

Companionship -- Domination/submission -- Sex/human contact

and to admit

that we're only hitting one of the three

and we ROCK companionship --

If that was all I needed
I would be over the moon

and to be honest

Sex?

doesn't rank all that high for me

yes - yes -- I would like to get laid

but if you offered me vanilla sex -- I would have to pass
I've had all of that I want/need

But the complete truth is that he has stopped Domming and while I've been submitting my ass off -- no one cares

that part of us -- has stalled
I don't know if he doesn't care about being a Dom
or if he just doesn't want to Dom me

but

it's gone

so I've made some suggestions

that range from surrogates -- to releasing me

and yes -- it seems silly to ask for release -- release from what?

but it's important to me

and

at this point -- on wednesday -- we're mulling it over.

I asked for some time to be able to get control of my emotions  -- to not have an orgy of pain over this

get some space

and -- I wait

because while I can live without the sex

can I live without submission

I don't think I can.