A taste of what I'm missing

So

B had some free time tonight and asked if he could see me

we chatted about what that would look like
and I told him he could come over

yes

too soon
unsafe
blah blah blah

I did it.

But I was really firm that I was NOT going to fuck him.

nope

you can put that out of your mind

because I would like to have a bit more time when that happens

and

yes -- he came over
and we messed around

we messed around a lot

and sfp went farther than she intended

but not all the way

it was a bit like high school
well

high school for me

playing those games of conquer and defend in the backseat of my boyfriend's car -- as he sought to take over new territory and I worked to push the invaders back into the agreed upon zones.

He is a nice man
he pushed
I teased
and stopped when I said stop
letting me get my breath back

and just as I thought we were done

he gave me a very nice spanking

not a beating by any means
there were 2 or 3 at the end that were in "beating" zone
but just at the end

and I'm just sore enough to remember it today

to have that ass awareness.

but

as I sit here afterwards

a few O's in my pocket

I can tell you - that he's not the one that I'm looking for
but

he could be fun for a bit

and we'll have to see how he feels about being that guy

until I find what I want

we'll see.