The Captain returns?

About 2 years ago -- there was the Captain.

and the Captain was delicious.

He was also
more Dom than I could handle

and

we explored being together
and had a great connection

but he got a promotion that meant lots of travel
and focus on his job
and decided to take a D/s break

and we never got started

We've kept in contact here and there
said hello
Merry Christmas over the past 2 years

but that was it

and I noticed
that he disappeared off Fet for a bit

maybe he found another girl
or maybe he just -- as he said -- had no time

but he's been back on Fet for the past few months
and yesterday

after I finally updated my profile to indicate that I'm looking

I got a message from him

inviting me out for coffee.

Here's a little something I wrote in the blog about him 2 years ago:

he's calm and domly and nice
but direct
and presumptuous -- in a domly way
and
things seemed to fit
but
I spent most of the coffee time - reeling 

We both stopped at the bathroom on the way out of Starbucks and I had a moment of horror when I thought he might come in the potty with me. 

but he went to the men's room - -I went to the ladies room 

on my way out -- he was in the door way -- blocking it - chatting with one of the baristasand he pushed me back a bit -- and fondled me -- while having a casual conversation with the girl - pinching - -very hard -- exploring...the inanity of the conversation with her puntuating the naughtiness of the moment. 

until finally he allowed me to come out.

and there was more -- but it was all about trying to figure out if I was in or out

and ultimately I was in

There's a munch tonight - -He knows I'm going -- and there's a chance he will stop by

and there's a party tomorrow night

ditto

and I want to explore this.

in the meantime -- S and I had to talk about slowing down.  

And I hurt his feelings a bit

I wish he understood that this high level of enthusiasm is what's freaking me out.

I had to make him understand that I'm talking to others

and need to

and that there's too much "if" in our future to do otherwise.

I was emotional yesterday

overly so

the kiddo has gone back to school

and i'm lonely

i miss her.

stay tuned for more adventure

sfp