I need a beating
not a spanking
a beating
I need to be under his thumb
and beaten past the point of caring
to curl up at his feet
when its all over
and float
I need a beating so badly that I actually in a moment of weakness messaged one of the contenders from a few years back -- I called him D
no - you can't go back and read about him - he's been deleted.
He was a delicious Dom
who gave me the most intense beating of my life
and treated me rather badly as well (but it's amazing how easily we forget that)
I just sent him a note to say hello
but I knew
it was a fucking booty call
he did not respond (thank God) -- because he is as Sin says, chocolate covered crack
the last thing I need
and I yearn for it
but no beating is in the cards
I am denied
Ohhhhh, i'm so sorry.
ReplyDeletehugs,
aisha
It will bet better
Deleteor it will not -- and THEN it will get better.
sfp
It's interesting how a person can need this sort of thing. But it's a release that you need to be able to let go of everything else. That release is a pleasure within itself even when it's pain that causes it. It's being able to go blank, even if for just a while, let go of everything else, and to just be in that moment. Even as a Dom, there are times that I have found that I need to be able to give that, which has surprised me about myself. Yet, that need is there. So in a way I know how you feel, and being denied and not getting what you need most can be difficult.
ReplyDeleteDV
@DV
DeleteThank you for the other side of it.
I appreciate the support
sfp
sweetie- sorry you are in such pain.
ReplyDeleteYou need a beating but it has to be from the right person.
(gosh that sounds weird even to write).
I completely get the want and need however.
Sending **hugs** and easier days/nights ahead.
~faithful
@Faithful
DeleteThanks -- this too shall pass.
sfp