Rebound

So -- I'm out there again

and yes -- I know -- I can hear you all tisk tisk tisking -- that it's too soon

and of course it is

I'm in mourning

but

I've been in mourning for longer than you know

and

I am mad at M
and hurting

and also

alone and needy

so -- I've been talking to this wonderful man

and he's unavailable -- married

Dr H asked me today why I choose emotionally unavailable men -- I resisted giving him the finger because He's a big mean Dom too

and he's right

I do

but I wonder if this guy -- we'll call him B -- isn't what I need right now

He's temporary

and delicious

and I won't tell you some of the naughty things he did to me in the parking lot of Starbucks

even if you beg

I wonder if I don't need someone to help me transition

some one unavailable
and sweet
and naughty
but who's really not a Dom

because

I think I could be way to vulnerable right now to get involved with another Dom

for a bit.

food for thought

I need to go finish was B started.