Munches

So it should be no surprise that M didn't relent -- that I am NOT down on my knees making him forget everything else in the world as we speak.

Nope

but not for lack of trying

the end result is that he got a few chuckles -- and enjoyed the efforts

and I have a pile of soaked panties.

Life really is tough for a sub banned from playing without her long distance man.

So

while I was working on the fruitless campaign to get laid, I went back out to Fetlife to get some of the photos there -- because nothing says, "come fuck me" like a picture of my lily-white ass.

and decided that my friends from where Aisha Lives are right -- and I should get out there and meet people in the community.

That I am lonely - because I am too much alone.

and since I am kidless -- for who knows how long

I decided to go to the munch we have here every 3 weeks.  Some of you may remember my previous adventures going to local area events -- when I pretty much got freaked out and vowed not to return.

Well - they weren't munches -- they were play events
and it was time for me to get back into the pool

So there were 3 interesting events today that grabbed my attention

A munch at about 1 on my side of the monstrous city we live in
A munch in the evening on the other side of town
and a party at a hotel for spankos

obviously the party is out
as there's no way I can justify to myself or to M that being spanked by someone but not fucked by them is not playing around

clearly it would be -- and

well - I'm not brave enough to go to a strange hotel and drop my drawers all by myself.

sorry

call me a chicken shit -- I can take it.

so -- I headed off to the local munch

and guess what

Nice people showed up.
and no -- I didn't bump into anyone I knew
and no -- there wasn't a sign over my head that said, "Kinky slut" -

and I got to dress a tiny bit sexier than usual which was fun.  I thought to myself -- (if I were single?  DANG -- this was where I should have been hanging out - a few of the people there were sooo fuckable!)

Yes -- I was my shy self -- but I did just fine -- and was proud of myself.  It's a strange thing about the local much that I didn't notice when I went with Aisha in her town.  People made a lot of eye contact.

and it struck me how little people do that in regular life.

If I went to a normal party, you wouldn't find that sort of eye contact.  It was sort of nice to be noticed and not be invisible.

so often in life we are invisible.

the host of the event was very solicitous of the newbies, checking in on a regular basis

I drove home rather pleased with myself for going -- and staying -- and actually enjoying myself and decided to go for broke and head to the one across town.

Some of the same people where there -- but I vowed not to be a hanger-on

I looked in my car's cup holder and realized that I have a 20 sided die in there.

I bought it awhile back as a joke - and then sadly forgot what was funny about it.

I decided to use it to my advantage and took it in with me.

I rolled the dice -- and got a 9.

SFP-- you are going to talk to NINE new people before you go.

now for some of you this is an easy thing -- but not so much for me.  That voice in my head that tells me that people aren't all that interested in talking to be gets a little loud in a room of strangers

and yes -- I know it's silliness - people like me -- but that bitch in my head is relentless.

and -- it made a great icebreaker.

before I knew it I had a few other people rolling the dice and trying to make their number before they got home.

So - a good night overall.

I am waiting for M to call -- I have permission for an orgasm (yay!) -- but want to get it while I'm talking to him if I can so I can feel his words roll over me as I cum,