Last night at the kinky christmas party

I met this nice boy at the munch a few weeks ago -- and reached out to him to see if he was going to the fund raiser/christmas party on Friday night

He was excited to go - -but needed a ride -- a great solution for me.  I picked up E and we headed there early.

I volunteered this time

which ended up being a brilliant strategy
at this event -- every can of food your brought gave you a dollar to use in the silent auction -- I was the girl who handed out your dollars

which allowed me to have a safe way to talk to almost everyone in the room.

there was a tiny table in front of me  -- which shielded me a bit

having something to do was very helpful.

and I am beginning to get to know some people
bit by bit

I saw Dr H -- and met his slaves - one of whom I've known for a few years.
and watched him do some very nice rope work

I saw a girl duct taped to the wall -- and then turned into a human christmas tree by using a large amount of green duct tape, tinsel and lights

but what captured my interest most -- was a very intimate scene

with a man with a girl in his lap
she was laying with her head against his shoulder, leaning her face toward his
their eyes fixed on each other
her weight on one hip - putting his hand in perfect spanking position
as he spanked her -- sometimes softly
sometimes firmly
and stared into her eyes
murmuring something

It made me wonder

what he was saying to her

so as I walked around and saw one couple
she, naked in a hood with limited sight
and him clothed -- wrestling on a mat
she receiving a sound spanking when pinned which was often.

or duct tape on the wall girl

or the rope bunnies flying

or the woman being beaten with a bundle of reeds wielded by a nice young man who gave me candy when I gave him his dollars

I most wanted to be her.

in his lap
being cared for
in the way we need to be cared for
by her man

so I headed home
winner of the gift certificate for Dr H -- as it was going too low in the auction and better that he get good value for it

and E the winner of an auction that supplied him with many vanilla gifts

I thought

this is not the place for me
I can visit

but this will never be home

but home could
be
sitting in the lap of my man
as he stares into my eyes
and owns me.