So today I found out about what type of bad stuff is in the kid's background
and I'm sure there's more that didn't make it into the court documents
actually
I don't really know what all happened because the person who printed the documents didn't have a toner cartridge -- so there were big white stripes on the paperwork.
it was like listening to it on a cell phone that was cutting in and out
but the stuff I did hear
was not good stuff
it is surprising that they haven't been in care before
and I don't think they'll be going home any time soon
there is a greater chance that they'll decide they need to go to another family member
or that they'll decide that the other 2 kids (not in care) need to come into care and they want them all together.
So what does that mean to me
absolutely nothing
ultimately
it doesn't change anything I will do
it doesn't change anything I will tell the girls
it doesn't change how I will feel about them
or plans that I will make
it changes nothing
I've long since decided that I will never give part of my heart to any child
that they get it all
every time
otherwise
what's the point
after all
scarred muscles grow back stronger.
and I have plenty of love to go around.
you are soooo strong. I'm in awe.
ReplyDeleteDitto sin!!!
DeleteI wish you all best. What you said about giving them you heart that is the only way to be and you can give them 100% love which is a thing the kiddos ha e never had or felt. We only do permannt fostering till the child is 18/19. Tohave them taken away would devastat us. As for what realy went on it will come out in time and all you can do is jus listen I do admire you doing it alone
ReplyDeleteHugs Ashly xx
What lucky children they are to be in your home and heart for now. They are truly blessed.
ReplyDeleteOnly one word came to my mind.
ReplyDeleteANGEL
That is what you are sfp.
Truly an angel and an inspiration to me.
~faithful