Grounded

The Dom friend, Sir P - has set me up with a few rules

think of them as a way to keep my kite connected to the ground - and out of the trees

I am to go to bed by 10pm - with lights out by 1030 at the latest - barring childhood interruptions

and I am to masturbate with reports -- no less than every other day -- but as much more often as I like.

two simple rules

I asked for them
well - I asked for something akin to them

and he gave them shape

and like magic

I feel grounded
connected

centered

giving someone else control over some things
makes me feel not so very alone

and having something to be successful at
because some days?
getting to bed by 10 might be the one thing I can say I did successfully

I was chatting with Sir P a bit tonight

and I commented that I had actually started to doubt if I was submissive at all

because there are times
many times

when I think

this was all just a phase
and I can do with out it (see post on droughts)

but now
I see

the profound effect
of 2 little rules

and the sigh of relief
as I let out a long held breath

and I can see
that this is who I am
this is what works

and how lucky I am to know who I am