Droughts and Conservation

Plants who live in the desert change

they sometimes even change from one time of year to the next.

During times of plenty - the plant life might spring to life - blooming suddenly-  hurrying to fill it's little bit of time when being nurtured by the rain with as much life as it can

before the drought returns

and the land dies back
and becomes barren again

waiting for the next rain.

during the drought
the desert goes into a type of hibernation
everything sort of shuts down

waiting

waiting

waiting

for the next nurturing rain

I know for some

particularly for many men

going through a long sexual drought does not make them shut down and hibernate
but makes them think about
dream about
crave
lust

for a taste of what their missing
and makes them want to gorge themselves upon it
when they return to it

but for me
and I don't think I'm horribly dissimilar to others of my gender

when I don't nurture my sensuality
my sexuality
my submissive side

it dies back
and nearly disappears from sight

and it takes a bit of doing to bring it back.

In the past few months
I've showered the dessert a bit here and there

just enough

to keep it from dying completely

but
not enough to sustain it

and I fear that this change
this loss of private time
this loss of energy

will kill it back so far that I might forget it exists

my Dom friend
who's been a real balm to me
in this dramatic change

has assigned me
not restriction of masturbation
as others have done
thinking that my wiring is like theirs
and that denial will drive me to the edge

but assigning it
and allowing excessive indulgence

to feed it
by even
stuffing it a bit
not only will the seeds stay alive

but the desert may bloom and thrive
and feed upon itself
and multiply