Last Night

M warned me he was out of sorts

I felt bad on the way here

thinking

no

KNOWING

that I sort of pressured him into this weekend
with the reality that we wouldn't see each other again soon enough

In spite of the fact
that due to parent issues
he couldn't spend the night
in fact -- in reality he left around 10

but I have to tell you

it was lovely

LOVELY

because he was out of sorts
and I was a bit under the weather

I was able to take care of him

OMG -- how much do I love that

I loved washing him in the hot shower
scrubbing my dirty man clean
and giving him a long long massage

these are the things that I think bring us closest
the continual connection
the sensual things

We got to talk
really talk
we do all the time
but there's something different
about being right there
curled next to him

dreaming about the future

so I sit here
on my cushy lovely bed
getting ready to head home

feeling nothing but
well being
and support
and love.