Biting

Aisha wrote something lovely about giving and taking  -- er receiving over here - that got me thinking about M and I.....you should read it -- it's lovely --

I'll wait

(Girl from Ipanema elevator music plays)

back?

ok -- good

M loves to bite

and before I met M - -I thought I liked to be bitten.

I do not.

M wants to bite me on all the fleshy bits -- and that hurts like a mother.
and

it doesn't turn me on
I don't like it
I don't want it
and

I wish he would stop.

to me -- it HURTS hurts -- not in a good way at all
in a way that's a signal to my body to make that stop right away

I moan -- and try to roll away
my legs curl up protectively

in all

I am a bad girl.

He LOVES to bite me.

we were talking about it the other night

and he admitted that he only bites now when he really wants to
and he knows I hate it

but that I fight myself to allow it
that I don't just

lol

get up
put on my clothes
and say

"fuck you - I'm out of here"

that's what I'm giving to him.
because

it's something I give
without receiving anything in return for

I've been thinking about that

is it a greater submission
because I dislike it so much?

Good thing he doesn't get off
on making me eat tomatoes
or play organized sports.

smiling

So it's interesting to me
that in his mind -- I am giving something (my submission)
during a time when I think I'm failing miserably

again
I'm brought back to

we both think we're the lucky one