Finally Friends

I had some free hockey tickets

so I gave them to Mr. C and his kiddo

I joined them about 1/2 way through the game
and had fun watching them enjoy the game

I even caught a shirt!

ME!

and I didn't even sprain anything!

and it's just nice to finally be friends

to really be friends

no other stuff
no residual feelings

just

that nice feeling

it's a bit awkward for him

and

(giggles)

I sort of like that I'm in a better place
about it than he is.

He has to manage his new love
and her feelings about me

the twinges of jealousy
it's hard to be so far away

I had M's permission to give them the tickets

and men, I think, have fewer twinges than women anyway

it was great to see his kid

I love her -- she's adorable.

and while there was a part of me that thought

"is this a good idea?"

I thought

1.  he's the Dad so if it's ok with him -- it's ok
and
2.  It's good to see that people who love you don't just go away
and don't come back.

so I'm rambling a bit

and I do have a point --

as I sat there in the game
I thought about how much these two men

are going to influence who I become as a parent

lol -- both of them are so fucking stern
I will be a softer parent

but both of them love love love their little girls
and make them the total focus when they're together

and that

that's cool.

so two friends
are great dads.