I think I've become whimpier
actually - I think it has something to do with hormones having read -- um ok -- browsed several studies about hormones and pain -- here's the least incomprehensible of them. -- I have come to wonder if my decreased tolerance for pain has to do with being off the birth control and having raging surging levels of estrogen. (by the way -- some studies seem to say the exact opposite -- so I'm going with the one that supports my theory)
Friday night he bit the small of my back
and I came unglued.
which made it worse -- as I pulled away as teeth were hanging on
it hurt for hours
yeah
it hurts now (a day later when this is written)
and I feel like some sort of big baby -- but then again -- maybe I just make it easier for him
less effort to see his girl suffer.
the next morning -- he was playing with me as I sucked his cock
which is not my favorite thing - I like to focus --
he was a bit rough
I tried to pull away -- my mouth too full to protest
and he reminded me that I don't get to take the pussy away
eventually -- I felt the need to tell him that it hurt
I struggle with that
does he know it hurts?
does he mean for THIS thing to be pleasurable
or painful
so am I informing him of a miscalculation
or whining?
lol
yeah
I think too much
and I have a big bruise from the bite
I think I'll get my heating pad
I'm a whimp.
i know i don't actually have to comment on every post you make, but this one - yikes and ouch!!
ReplyDeletei don't know how i'd feel about being bitten. And a bruise and pain that lingers that long? Sheesh.
So you may be getting whimpier, and it may or may not be estrogen related, but i think you're plenty tough. Just saying...
aisha
oh -- I think I'm whimpier -- and I can tie it to when I quit taking the BC pills
ReplyDeletewhich also sent my sex drive over the moon
huh
go figure
sfp
I think everyone's pain tolerance shifts. If I'm tired I feel things a lot more. But you could be right about the hormones if you're hot for more pleasure too? - it's not all bad news then :-) and I'm sure he'll get the intensity right again soon.
ReplyDeletewe all have different levels of pain, sweetie...and i struggle too with the telling him that i hurt when He is doing something...
ReplyDeleteand there are times when i'll say something *afterwards* ..."Master, did you know that...." and He'll say 'nilla...did you have any doubt that I knew *exactly* what I was doing to you?"
um.
no. guess not.
and i'll blush.
and then He'll laugh that devious laugh...and i'll know that He very well knew what He was doing...
Don't they make life so much more exciting?!
nilla
M and I are still learning each other.
ReplyDeletethat's part of it
All I know is that while I crave the pain -- the pain HURTS
sfp