so --
I've vacillated between being upset that he might not want to see me
and feeling that it would be better if we didn't see each other
I asked if next weekend is an option
it's not for him
the weekend of the 14th and 21st are not for me
which again -- puts us at the 28th
a month
not really what I want
I was in tears about it today
because he kept saying that if I'm not 100%
that I shouldn't come
and it was hurtful
because I want to see him anyway
and
I don't know if I'm going to be fighting fit or not
and
I had just about convinced myself that I was going to be ok
and
he expressed some concern about a bug he might be coming down with
I said,
Love...sometimes we may just need to be a little dumb to keep us alive....I would want to be with you even if it were only to give you a massage.
Then come....it is done.
Thank you Love
but then -- I'm thinking -- ok -- we'll just be together and work within whatever limitations we have
and he brings out the Dom guns
No complaints about limitations, either of us being tired, etc. Clear?
Yes we will just be...no complaints
You will please and give. Period
Yes Sir.
and while I mean it -- I wonder if I should have just kept my mouth shut
but now -- it's done
and we will be together
and I'm going to have to suck it up
the sub in me is thrilled
practical girl is a bit worried about her cunt.
are you eating yogurt? I've heard (but not tried) that you can smear it on your bits...and it soothes and helps balance ph and "proper" germies...
ReplyDeletewell, what the hell do you have to lose, right?
still, picturing you pouring yoplait on your girlie bits...
does make me grin..
(then again, i'm like that, yanno?)
*stifling giggles*
(really, trying to!)
nilla
ps
he sounds abso-fucking-lutely *perfect* Wow...
Time together is precious but it is tempting to try to make it perfect every time. Hopefully you will be better very soon.There is a tablet you can take that should work in 24 hour - and yogurt is worth a try although perhaps avoid anything with nuts. Courage and confidence and Im sure all will be well. Alice. X
ReplyDeleteYeah, i've heard that about yogurt too, although my vote is still for the magic pill. You know, your doctor will prescribe it over the phone, even the on-call doc can do it. i don't know why they don't just write the script at the same time they do the antibiotics.
ReplyDeleteSending positive energy your way...
aisha
Go for the pill if you have it.
ReplyDeleteI have tried the yogurt and omg it does work, makes it feel better right away, partly because it's cool. Use plain yogurt, no sugar obviously, and no other stuff, and I would use real yogurt rather than that diet stuff which has all kinds of weird crap in it.
-sin