Casual sex

I have never actually had casual sex

never had a FWB

nope

not ever

which is not to say that I've never had a one night stand
or slept with someone I didn't love

but not on purpose

not when I knew it would go nowhere

I have never had sex for the sake of just having sex.

even when I messed around with Sandy

(yes - I know - he's been erased from the blog too)

I had a strong connection with Sandy

but B?

B is just a FWB

all he would ever be

and he's sweet
and funny
and kind

but just a friend
if that

so he came over
and yes
we had sex

and

well - it was fine
it was sex

plain
ordinary sex
with a bit of kink
but not much

the actions of kink
without the intent

and I kept thinking

I'm done now
I wonder how long this will take
and

I wish he would stop doing that

and he was giving me his A game
and there was nothing wrong with it

other than the fact that it was empty

all that being said,

I don't regret it - not one bit

it's ok to learn about yourself
and what works
and what doesn't work

for me?

this doesn't work

live and learn.