I wanted to post something to get last night's post off the top.
because last night was last night
and today is today
and while I needed to get it out
it's not 100% of my reality
today is a new day
and today I want to talk about regrets
I've been talking to M
as you know if you read here
if you're my ex
you're in my life for good
sorry -- it's a lifelong commitment to be my friend
so
M and I talk
and
now that his life is much less shitty?
divorce is finalized
new job
light at the end of the tunnel
he can see what he tossed away
and does this mean anything for us?
no
I think not
but
it makes me feel
hmmm
vindicated?
wanted?
something like that
Cool! That's bound to feel satisfying! It makes me smile too - ha! who's sorry now??
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sofia
O,, sorry, that might have been too mean? i can take the "ha" back...
ReplyDeletesofia
lol @ Sofia - taking the ha back.
ReplyDeleteNice - you did kind of know it at the time I think? That you'd feel vindicated?
-sin
Gosh- that is so like me , lots of Ex's in my life and most of my friends don't get it- how can I remain friends with them? But I do, all of them. Even back to my HS boyfiend and gosh- there is even a middle school boy too :) who still is my buddy.
ReplyDeleteAnd yeah- they do come crawling back sometimes and the vindication can be powerful.
Other times, it is wonderful to have that friend to lean on who understands it all and doesn't judge.
Hope you and M figure out that place that works for both of you.
~faithful
You are juggling so many balls I don't honestly know how you do it most days. We all do what we must and take it in stride...and I think it's pretty fucking healthy that you can call your exes friends rather than things like "asshat" and "shithead".
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