Assignment

On Thursday
Sir P gave me an assignment

to excuse myself
and masturbate without cumming

at some assigned times

he gave me some leeway

because I cannot just excuse myself at any old time -- it doesn't work that way

in fact

on the hour?

would be the most difficult
because I'm almost always just leaving or just going into a meeting ON the hour

So - the 10am was done at 11ish
and the 12 - was done a bit late
and the 2  -- wasn't done at all

At 4 I was rushing to pick up the girls

and I called him and told him about my day
I told him that I missed the 2pm
and didn't know how I could get the pm one done

and I asked for a Friday do-over

and

he told me to figure it out.

I was frustrated by this

and yet

got it done
in the car
driving through traffic
with a sweater in my lap

the experience was positive in that I obeyed
when I didn't want to
and that helped a bit

but

I had started to shut down
and that wasn't good

yesterday morning
I asked for another assignment

not a do over
but

I needed more

because my everyothernightmasturbation assignment
was getting difficult
not to do it

I can do the act
but

I was having to force them out of me
vibe on high
teeth gritted

I described it as trudging up a mountain hauling my whole day up behind me.

not good
not positive
not a release

and while submissive in that I was doing something I would choose not to just because he wants me to
it was not sex-positive

so yesterday

at 11 - in the shower
at 2 - in my room
at 5 - hurriedly while listening to the girls in the next room mommommommom
and at 8

I touched
and came
ohsodeliciouslyclose

until at bedtime

when I got on my knees
he was easy for me to find
and when it came time to cum
I did
easily
and happily
and received my release.