Missing Him

I am
missing him terribly

which is silliness
because if I were home
I would not be with him this weekend
he was not free

but the extra miles
make him feel farther away

that and

well - he doesn't want to take away from my time with my friend

I emailed him with a  detailed fantasy this morning
he hasn't read it

it's too early

and add a time change
no chance he's up

writing it made me squirm
with no ability to request and receive permission

a form of self abuse

but better than not thinking of him
always better -- even when it's painful
to have him close to me
in my mind

sigh

this girl needs to be used.

and frankly -- it is easier when you're not surrounded by like minded people
as kink can wander farther from your thoughts

I envy Aisha curled against her Sir -- all while being very happy for her.

She is so very happy
and they are a well suited pair -- complements for each other

yesterday I wrote about how my view of this city was Aisha's view
but last night
I received the tour from Aisha's Sir
and saw yet another city
just as lovely
but now much more complete

It was a lovely day -- I bought some over priced but lovely yarn
and Aisha picked up some amazing art she and her Sir had selected
and a great dinner at a classically where they live eatery
garnished with many many stories

all it's lacking
is a bit of permission from you know who

hint hint

Sir?  are you out there?  ahem -- SIR?  Needy girl over here?

nope
still sleeping.

Happy Sunday y'all