Pushing

I've been pushing at him in the past few days

as I got to the end of my quarantine
I have started to push
and poke

wanting attention
and control

sometimes I think I want control more than he wants to give it
but
then again -- we both have things that we need more

so it's all in balance

I wanted to play last night
he wasn't having it
even though it was allowed
he was not allowing it

He told me I would cum tomorrow
and I pointed out that it was almost tomorrow

and at midnight
on the dot

he ordered me to cum
glad I was awake for it

it was brutal
no anticipation

I got relief
but no real pleasure from it

this morning
we teased each other via text

he has the little one
so no ability for naughty talk

he had me put in the plug around 10
just to wear

we've not gone here before
just the control
without the sex

and I
well -- I rolled around in it

getting dressed and puttering around the house

answering the door
which was insanely
a door to door cemetery plot salesman

bizarre

about an hour in
I was craving it out
but the phone rang

my family
and I sat and talked
distractedly

at the two hour mark
I wanted it out
I could feel my body push at it
he checked in on me

and as he did
I felt it settle back in

he said

We're "lengthening the leash"

and had me cum

he allowed me to take it out
and I'm left
feeling

used
and controlled

with a sore bottom
and sore abs

and marveling that I keep getting just what I need
when I think I need something else