I am at a very happy time in my life
M
sigh
M is not.
and I hate it
I hate that he's struggling
that
he's on the brink of depression.
life has treated him roughly of late
and it's just unfair.
He's a strong man
a proud man
and to hear
that slight crack in his voice
last week
was heart rending
I want to fix it
I want to help
but I cannot
We are trying hard to make time for each other this weekend
if not this weekend
I don't know when it would be again
as the following weekends are tightly booked
He needs me
and I need to go to him
to give him a day of peace
and relaxation
he needs a day
where he is in control
of the outcomes
so often
I think about our time together
about getting what I need
selfish girl
but
we're all a bit selfish sometimes
but this time
what I need
is to give him
what he needs
nothing more
my poor exhausted man.
SFP,
ReplyDeleteNot saying it's not hard on everyone but for these dominant types its really hard when the world just spirals out of their control. Or they realize they can't control everything or everyone...
Sending big hugs to you and to him
mouse
I call it being the "pressure release valve"- cuz there have been times when "we" are the only thing going right in his world. And that is SO hard to watch...
ReplyDelete@mouse -- I think you're right. I think being so out of control is very tough on the Domly ones
ReplyDeletehopefully he can carve out some time this weekend for us -- otherwise
well -- I hate to think about the otherwise -- I think it's another month.
@JZ -- right on the money
sfp
yes, I get it.
ReplyDeleteSending hugs to you and him - and lots of positive energy. i know he's glad he has you.
ReplyDeleteaisha