Aisha got me thinking about M not reading my blog
he does not read here
he could easily find it if he wanted to
I would give him the address
but he has not asked for it
and we have discussed what a valuable outlet it is.
I sometimes cut and paste a post
and I send him links to my vanilla blog
when he gets them
he reads just that entry
and nothing else
and there's power in that
isn't there?
it's not a secret blog
he knows it is there
he knows he could find it
he could ask for it
I would give it
but he chooses not to
I am MORE vulnerable
because I continue to write
honestly
with the risk
that he could read
and I would not know
I give him my trust
lol
I have not even asked him NOT to read it
but I trust that he will not
because
I know how amazing he is
He has control
not only of me
but of himself.
and it's a beautiful thing
to trust him so much
because
honestly
it never occurred to me that he would
break that trust
I have no doubt about it
and I'm sitting here amazed as
I consider that
How much I love
and trust
the control
of my honorable man.
Yes. It's an amazing feeling, isn't it?
ReplyDeletei don't know if i've ever known a man who had the kind of self-control my Sir has. i imagine you maybe have, but i haven't.
His ability to control Himself makes me feel submissive somehow all by itself.
aisha
very much aisha -- very much
DeleteA Dom without self control would be a stalking rapist or serial killer wouldn't he?
ReplyDeleteScary thought.
that it would.
Deletebut I wonder - like Sin -- if I would have the same self control he has in not snooping.
sfp
Self-control comes along with knowing exactly what will work for you and how to get there. It is a confidence thing. You are very lucky :-)
ReplyDeleteI am lucky
DeleteIf someone asked me NOT to read a blog and I knew it was there and could find it, could I do it? I doubt it.
ReplyDeleteyou and me too Sister Sin -- you and me
DeleteI admire his restraint
imagine
not reading something you know if about you.....
sfp
Rarely, my M stops at my blog (which was how the disaster of no pix on HNT Thursday came about...He wanted to see tits on Thursday, dammit!)
ReplyDeleteI had no idea. And I don't vent there because...well, it's not really the purpose. If I write about him, i always send it to him first, pre-approval.
Is it weird that after 2.5 years I really don't have anything bad to say about him?
*grin*
sometimes he pisses me off, but i usually go right to him, or get over it...but those are RARE events...
and usually coz of some vanilla shit overflowing.
nilla