He's the Boss

So

I have a 2 rules

all panties all the time is the first (#2 tomorrow)

which I struggled with for a very long time
I prefer no panties in bed
and often

in pjs

will go commando

yes -- I'm daring

but that's not allowed

being long distance
sometimes I get into bed after a night shower
and I don't have them

and I think

"I'm tired"

and I don't want to get up
and  I think

"it doesn't matter if I don't wear them"

and I stare at the ceiling
and stare
and stare

and then have to get up and find a pair

strange isn't it?

most of the time I don't feel like a sub at all
I live my life
I talk to him every day

but we don't have rituals
we don't have rules about our interactions
I don't call him Sir

we bicker
we tease each other

but

every day
I have this reminder

and the fact that I am
incapable
of breaking this rule

or at least breaking it without
feeling horrible

tells me what I am

the other day
there was not one clean pair to be had

not one

every pair in the wash

and I actually found a mostly clean pair
and wore them inside out

true story

yeah

I'm a sub.