Second rule

yesterday I mentioned 2 rules

the other is just
that there's not cumming
no touching
without his permission

pretty standard

I'm going to admit

that for the first

hmm

5 months or so

I bent the rules

I would touch
without cumming

telling myself

"the rule is no orgasms without him"

but it made me feel terrible.

so I've settled into the rule

I ask
he mostly says 'yes'

sometimes it's 'wait'
or 'later'

sometimes it's 'no'

I have company this weekend
really starting tonight

so

we had a date last night
even though he has his daughter

so it was one sided
but it was also

completely delicious
I came until my bones shook loose

until I couldn't move
and as I gathered myself
I could hear him making
MMMMMmmmm
sounds in my ear

I had my dose of sex
he had his dose of power

from the filthy visions he poured over me

and last night

I slept the night through
no 3am wakeup

I love he has this control
even when I hate it

and at times -- when I wish he gave
me more rules to hold tight to
I remember

that's HIS choice
not mine
and these 2
show me who I am
just as well as 20