yes..Yes...YES!

I met M today in person

and it was sort of as Oatmeal Girl projected in her comments

I had a hard time connecting the man in front of me with the man on the phone.

I'm shy

shit

I was scared

because I don't want to try a lover on for size and discard him

it's

ookie

and frankly -- I've gotten involved before and had it not be right

I was waiting for a few minutes and calmed myself down as much as possible.
but when he got there I was in a frenzy of shyness and fear and doubts

and we talked for a bit

and he looked like the man I know
actually -- he looked better than the man I know

but he felt wrong

even though he sounded like him

and he said all the right things

and when he kissed me
his kiss was wonderful

and we decided to leave
and get a room to have some privacy
even though I wasn't sure yet

because he didn't feel like him

we checked in -- and kissed a bit -- and kisses turned to touch -- and touch turned to manhandling
and suddenly

I looked in his eyes

and said,

"oh-- there's the guy I know"

and he said, "why -- what changed?"

I couldn't say

but the thinks it because he took charge

and I don't know
and I don't care

because I've spent a wonderful day with him
and I'm

well

I'm in

IN

and while there's still lots in our way

I'm cautiously happy

sfp

PS -- bastard bites HARD