If you can't spot the asshole at the party -- maybe it's you

My friend L took me to a local community party tonight -- it's good for me to get out

left to my own devices I would stay in all the time -- invite one or two people over from time to time

but never go out.

It's good for me to take the old social anxiety out for a spin

healthy

but what came to mind tonight after getting home was an old Bill Cosby joke

someone told him that cocaine was great because it intensifies your personality

and Cosby's response was -- "yeah -- but what if you're an asshole"

I was thinking about my social anxiety -- and how it intensfies my natural tendancies - -which is shyness
and my recent realization that I'm not the only one who's bad at being in a large social group -- LOTS of people are

perhaps it just intensifies our personalities.

Which explains the absolute prat who insulted me the few times I got the nerve up to pipe into a conversation.

what a tool.

that being said

I went to a party
I talked to people
and the world continued to turn

and now?

I can stay at home for a bit -- where it's cozy.