KK and I were talking about TV tonight
she wanted to hear about a story from my childhood
about me and TV
and I was explaining about the Addams Family
and all the characters
there was a long explanation about why Wednesday Addams was named Wednesday
and I was unable to successfully explain why it's so funny that her doll's name was Marie Antoinette to a 9 year old.
and then I came out after prayers to play some music on the TV
and frankly wonder why I pay for cable any more
since the girls got here
I hardly watch the thing
which
is so strange
because I swear to God I spent endless hours in front of the TV
and I hardly let the girls watch any at all.
it's like a prison camp here
lol
I watch a bit of Netflix in bed at night
but really?
it's sort of become a really large strange appliance at my house
before the girls got here it was on all the time
now?
meh
in other news
things have been beyond shitty around here
and I don't want to talk about it
suffice it to say that I've come close to quitting
and I don't mean the thought passed casually
but that it was and continues to be weighed carefully
and as my agency tries to talk me off the ledge
(which pisses me off to no end)
I try to figure out what's right for me
because I'm the only one involved in this process who IS worried about me.
TV is a big time waster... don't worry that you aren't watching it! Okay, just my opinion, right,
ReplyDeleteI don't know what's wrong. Being a parent is hard. Maybe the particular circumstances are too hard? I guess we don't know...
Wishing you well,
sin
So sorry you feel so badly about the work situation... it is hard to quit .. but sometimes that is all one can do.
ReplyDeleteI hope things get easier for you~!
You are wise...You are the ONLY one who can look out for your well-being. The agency has their own agenda and you're a cog in their wheel...not the loving and loyal person I know you to be.
ReplyDeleteSending hugs and much love as you wend your way through the morass.
nilla
proof reading..who knew?
Delete"You are a cog in their wheel...and not a person to them, let alone the loving and loyal person I know you to be..."
nilla
I know the decision is very difficult so just sending hugs and my support.
ReplyDelete~faithful
Oh SFP, as your name implies, I'm sure you are truly striving for peace. It can be dreadfully allusive sometimes. I think all of us parents would say that parenting is WICKED hard in the best of circumstances. You have really difficult circumstances and you're doing it alone. You have GOT to take care of you!
ReplyDeleteHugs,
fiona
" I'm the only one involved in this process who IS worried about me."
ReplyDeleteI've been in situations where I suddenly opened my eyes and realized that. It's really important information.
Take care of yourself.
much love,
sofia
Just go with your heart. Nobody should be putting any presure on you only give you sound advise.But you do sound like a good Mom.
ReplyDeleteHugs and a shoulder Ashly xx
To echo Sofia, it is good that you realize that everyone else involved is acting in their own best interest, therefore you need to as well. No knock on them, it's human nature.
ReplyDeleteKeep in mind that you have people who will care about you, support you, and admire you for your involvement in the process. The best we can do is cheer from the sidelines, but remember we will be cheering regardless of your decisions.
Just sending a million hugs your way and ya what sin said too.
ReplyDeleteHugs,
mouse