I alternately care a huge amount about my state inspection on Thursday
and want to tell them all to go take a flying fuck
it's an interesting thing
I guess it's part of being a people pleaser - I want them to like me -- accept me -- endorse me
but
I also want them to get the fuck away from me
so
I've twisted myself in knots
because I resent doing the stuff I need to do
but I also feel a burning desire to do it
it's only a few more days
the cunt case manager has drummed up a reason to come by tomorrow after work to "drop off" something so essential that I've never even heard of it before
it's really an excuse to look around my place again
which
she's really not welcome to do
and it means that I may have to be openly rude to her
which I mostly avoid
mostly
and
I've managed to worry myself into gastric distress
sigh
in the meantime
my ear worm italian CDs came in -- so this is playing in the background
I will be thinking of you withe your twat of a case worker. Oue ones are so good its a great to work with them. My advise is learn how to tell you case worker how to fuck off in a lot of other language. She wont know what you have said and you will feel good!!
ReplyDeleteHugs good luck Ashly xx
Oh, i totally get that with inspection!! Hey, at least you don't have to shave for it! {Hehehe} Ok, seriously, stand up to the case manager - that's not rude. Did the supervisor ever get with you about it?
ReplyDeleteAnd i love you ear worm language lesson! i can see that it might be very effective.
sofia
Good luck being civil to the wretched caseworker. Speaking in another language very quietly might help you.. and do stand up for yourself! But then, I think you will!
ReplyDeleteshe is definitely looking for something. Leave your big dildo on the nightstand? No just kidding, don't do that. But I wonder if she thinks you're hiding something rather than seeing that she deeply invaded your space. Some people are just that dense.
ReplyDeleteWishing you well for tomorrow's inspection.
Hugs,
nilla