tonight I'm filled with thoughts of longing
of wishing
of hoping
of wanting what I don't have control over
tonight I feel
impotent
and out of control
(and not in a good way)
and I am
carefully
packing these feelings away
the myth that feeling your feelings
all of them
when you feel them
is what's best
that pushing feelings away is always bad
is sometimes a bit of shit advice
because if I focus
on all the things I don't have
all the things that might not work out the way I want
well
I lose what I have right now
and what I have right now
all the things I have
all the many many blessings I have right now
are too wonderful
to lose
Now is where I'm going to stay
tomorrow can wait.
Im not good with dealing with feelings full stop, i tend to compartmentalise them and those i dont want to address or being honest i just dont want to deal with i bury and focus on the good feelings...i would like to say this works..it doesnt lol, the feelings i dont want to feel always find their way to the surface.
ReplyDeleteTomorrow is another day and sometimes its best to just see what that brings.
Tomorrow can almost always wait.
ReplyDeleteHey, you,
ReplyDeleteThe problem is not in putting the feelings away and seeking out the happiness of today. The problem is when you don't allow yourself to feel the feelings at all, when you deny they're there, act like they don't matter, or try to pretend you can make them go away for ever.
Yeah, what Tori said.
It works a lot better if you feel the feelings first.
hugs, and much love,
aisha
Hugging and loving you...enjoy the now...every second of it.
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