yeah
lately it's just gone
I don't feel submissive
funny
I don't feel rebellious
or like being a "bad girl"
but I'm not feeling his power right now
and I'm not sure this has a damn thing to do with him
but rather all with me
I'm not sure I have room for much of anything else right now
that I have room in my head for me
and all my thoughts and worries
and for him too
I'm sure it's there
like a bit of sourdough starter
that I'm feeding just a wee bit to keep it from dying
but
not enough to fully become what it can be
and I'm searching around to see if I feel empty about this right now
and nope
I don't
right now I just need him to be my friend
and he's such a wonderful friend to me
and let's be honest
all it would take
would be a little tug on my leash
and I would fall right back into place
because that's our groove
where we fit
even though
we fit over here too
hugs ya'll
the waiting continues
It's nice you have him as a friend. It sounds like that's what you need right now. And as you say all it would take is a little tug on your leash.
ReplyDeleteWaiting SUCKS.
-sin
sending hugs back and glad you have him on your side.
ReplyDeletewaiting does SUCK ,but the reward will be grand.
~faithful
good that you can exist as friends too. That's the best part of it right? that it only takes a little tug...
ReplyDeleteWaiting is so hard.
ReplyDeleteAnd it's really, really good to be friends.
aisha
He is such a wonderful friend -- I am so very very blessed (almost a year now and I still feel so damned lucky)
ReplyDeleteand then -- sigh -- he comes through with the domliness
yum