M is away this weekend with family
and when he's there
I get very little contact
and I feel very fragile right now
I'm sleep deprived
so very very sleep deprived
and about 1/2 the time when we try to connect -- it's a bad time for the other one
or someone's screaming
and I'm struggling to see our future
struggling to see when we're going to be able to be together again
and I just have to have faith in my man
faith that we will weather this
that there will be a time when we are with each other again
even though
it might not work
and
yes -- I"ve expressed these fears
and he's comforted me
and continues to do so
but this weekend
I just miss him
so much
Lord I need some sleep.
yes, sleep will help.
ReplyDeletesleep whenever you can. It's hard. Hard to give yourself permission to do that coz there are so MANY things to try to get done.
Your son...ah, isn't that nice? Your son will understand if his onesies aren't washed coz momma needed a nap.
Hug,
nilla
It's a big, important, tiring job, and you are doing it well. It sounds to me like you have a good man, and that he's trying to fit in around the baby. Things will work out. Big hug!
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ReplyDelete~faithful
take a benedryle and call me in the morning...
ReplyDeletehugs.