Waiting

I am waiting for tomorrow to come

I'm off to see M again

I've gone from being very frustrated about our arrangement
there must be 10 unfinished entries I haven't posted about the futility of our long distance gig

to being accepting of it.

I know things are going to get difficult in the months ahead

but it is what it is
I will adapt
and so will he

love will bear up
or it will fade

and I'm still happy that I
made the choices I've made
I would not have missed him
for anything

So tomorrow I will go see him

I'm to be ready at high noon
early for us -- it's often 2 or 3 before we are able to meet

and I've been teasing him
daring him
so I know I'm in for it.

why do I do that?
I'm not really that tough you know

I think it's more about saying
"I miss you-- I love you -- I crave you"
than saying

I'm a pain slut

lol

who am I kidding
It's both.

hurry up tomorrow!