We were having a lovely time
Other than the fact that I can never seem to shave without abrading myself a bit down south -- causing some irritation
we were having a lovely time
When he walked in - he noted that I was mostly dressed as requested -- the garters were a fail -- but the rest worked well.
he kissed me deeply -- hands on either side of my face
I moved a hand up to caress him back
and his hand quickly moved my hands back to my side
in control
he soon had me on my knees on the bed
crop going to work on my wet pussy
and soon -- fucked until I saw spots.
and then
reality returned
he checked his messages
one from the ex
car trouble
at a level that a normal person would just have dealt with -- but she could not
so he had to leave.
and I am sweet about it
on the outside.
I took a nap -- and two hours later he called to say he was on his way back
sigh
I wonder if I'm too affable
too accommodating
but what was I to say? Leave the ex and child stranded on the road?
of course not
even if they were only 6 blocks from home
seriously
when he returned I was NOT feeling submissive
I served dinner
mussels in wine sauce.
fresh green salad
crusty bread and Irish butter
feeling a bit more submissive
later -- we curled up together -- he asked me if I would like my spanking before or after his massage
before
definitely before
and by the end of the spanking
I was back
back feeling like I belonged again
Yes, I can totally relate to that self-doubt, the "am I just being stupid here?" {at least that's how it plays in my head.}
ReplyDeleteGlad you were able to get back into a better head space.
hugs,
aisha
life isn't perfect and so it is good that these little "interruptions" come up to remind us of that.
ReplyDeleteOne of your previous posts mentioned that it was your job to "promote harmony" and his job to "keep the direction of your relationship safe".. (or something to that point). That reasonated with me and how I deal with my LDR with Master and so hopefully you can continue to go back to that thought when those little interruptions come up :)
~faithful
It IS maddening when you get the short end of the stick but the reason is because they're acting from the sense of responsibility that you respect them for. Both raises one's ire and yanks the rug out from under one's feet...
ReplyDelete"I'm mad at you for behaving according to the values I love in you..."??
I figure it's the universe's last-ditch effort to teach me patience.
Yay! that you came back together quickly. :-)
(*unaingst*)
I LOVE JZ's comment...how spot-on...
ReplyDelete*shutting up for once and merely nodding*
nilla