All Talk

I really am enjoying this time with M

even though it's all talk

for hours

until he'll finally say, "it's time to put you to bed, Angel, you've been yawning for 1/2 an hour"

you know

I think sometimes we get all caught up in the action
and forget about the talk

and the talk can be dangerous

since it's likely to be a few more weeks before we can get together

the talk might make us very very attached to each other and create great disappointment if things don't play out

or

the talk might fizzle out - -with nothing else to sustain it
we may exhaust all the possible topics

and then be stuck with stony silence

words are powerful things

they can wound when we want them to
and sometimes even if we don't want them to

and they can bind two people together more tightly than any other bond

and a man that's good with words?

sigh

I would go a long way for that

so right now -- it's all talk

but I'm pretty sure that in the end

it won't be all talk at all.