Smidge Smitten

Ok --

time to admit it

I'm a bit smitten with M

He's smart
He's funny
and he's good at this job
and he's focused
and he's nice
he likes kids

yeah - he doesn't live here -- but it's not all that far away

and we can't stop talking to each other

and here's what I like the best?

We barely talk about the D/s thing

at all

a smidge here and there

but mostly?

work and politics and dreams and hopes and frustrations and  and and and

yeah

a bit smitten

and I hate even writing this because it's too soon
and

I'm going to jinx it or something

but

I just don't care

this is what I want

even if it's not him

I want this

this -- energy
this  -- excitement
the -- stimulation

I've been talking a lot to the BFF lately - -she's just broken up with her boyfriend -- and we spent the weekend hanging out talking

and here's the thing

she keeps dating maybes

I told her - -you need to sort them into two piles

Yes's and No's

Once you identify that he's a maybe?
once you start compiling the list of things you think maybe you can live with

you need to move on

because - when they're on the "yes" pile?
sure - those things are there

but they're trivial
and you don't care about them

so

will M always be a "yes"?

no way to know

but right now?

he's no "maybe"

and I'm having a great time

sfp

(PS - he writes - -ya'll -- he WRITES!)