The What If Game

M had a rotten day at work today

I called and we chatted a bit -- he told me his story and I laughed at his story -- and he laughed with me and the day shifted a bit for him -- made lighter.

and he said to me

"Not to freak you out -- but I wondered -- what if I went home to you one night in a mood like this -- I was wondering today how you would take it"

and I told him - it was ok

we all play the what if game

Isn't that a big part of what it is in the beginning when you're getting to know each other

you play the what if game

over and over

you play the positive side
and the negative side

What if we fall in love
What if he wants me to move closer to him
What if I have to quit my job to be happy
What if I can't find work in the tiny town he lives in
What if he doesn't like me as much in person
What if he's the one

and the What if game is important

because that's what you're trying to do in the beginning
get little peeks into the future

and knowing that he's taking little peeks into the future
is nice

as long as we are both doing it

and yes -- it's all too soon
and we're both getting a bit swept away

but What if it's not too soon
what if

mmmmmm

what if....