I don't want him back.

I just woke up from a dream (well for the second time -- the parents are all dropped off and I came home for a nap) it was a clear, sharp dream -- that doesn't feel like a dream at all....

I went by to see Mr. C -- I'm not sure why

and we started to talk -- and talk and talk

and before you know it -- he pulled me into his arms

he told me what a horrible mistake it was letting me go

he promised that things would change -- and we began to play

and the play was fun -- and intense -- and he took it to some new places that we never went

and it was -- how does 'nilla put it? HAWT

and the whole time -- my brain was reeling

"do I want this? do I want this?"

My mouth was saying yes -- and he said all the right things -- and it was beautiful between us.

and a part of me that wasn't part of the dream kept saying

"no"

and that part of me got louder

"No"

and louder

"NO"

and louder

"NO!"

and that part of me finally woke me up.

and I know

that

I don't want him back

BEST

NAP

EVER