The meeting

Dompossible and I met
and

while there wasn't the thunderbolt.
He's sweet
and kind

and I liked him very much

We met and had an early dinner
and walked around the local outside mall

we held hands

we shared a sweet kiss on a park bench

and decided to come home

My city is huge
and the drive was long to get to my house

I needed to pick up Pixie and put her to bed -- after playing with the neighbor's 2 year old it took her less than 5 minutes to conk out.

but you don't want to know about all of that -- do you?

you want me to get to the good stuff.

Well

I'm not quite ready to write about it quite yet.

Dompossible is a sadist.
I am not a masochist

and

I'm left feeling a bit like a failure - because I couldn't take it
and I think he's more than a bit worried that he'll take me too far

because his "barely there" was way beyond my endurance

for whatever reason

perhaps because it's been too  long
and a bit of being emotionally run down

so I'm a bit sad
and a bit worried
because I don't think it's going to work for us
and I think we both really wanted it to

We have a date tonight -- for dinner

and

I predict that we'll have a great time - no play tonight -- I'll have the baby.

but ultimately,

unless we can find the right balance of play

neither of us is going to get what we want.

even thought we like each other so very very much