Going back

So it's been an emotional few days for Dompossible and I.

Yesterday we had a family dinner out -- and we both got so caught up in all the reasons why we can't work that we made ourselves miserable.

I mean

crying in the restaurant kind of miserable.

Here's what happened

We just

sigh

we just got so close over the past few months
shared so much
that

we've sort of fallen for each other

and then

Sunday

we made a strategic mistake.

we fast forwarded physically to where we are emotionally
and

it was too much

my head was spinning
and
we were too mismatched.

so I invited him to have dinner with me tonight
and he asked to think about it

and asked to come and have dinner and talk
and we talked
while entwined on the couch
and

he took charge
and said that we were going to hit the reset button
and
back off.

So

no more play
although there were some moments
when we started to kiss
and things got hot
and nearly nearly nearly
took us back to where we were

so

I suppose
we are

dating?

well

not dating


I don't know what the hell to call it

because his business trip has been cut short - he goes home tomorrow instead of Friday
and may or may not be back in a few weeks

but we're going to see where this goes
if this goes

because there's the potential of happily ever after
and the potential of horrible heartbreak

in equal measure

but for now

no more play for this sub
for now

reset.