Tuesday, September 4, 2012

there are times

There are times when I am hungry for him
for his taste
and his smell

for his fist in my hair
for his cock in my mouth

for the feel of his hands on his girl

and I torture myself with it
I imagine it
until I buck
and writhe in my bed with
no release
because he has yet to decide if I can or cannot
or has yet to read the message

he may or may not respond
and he may decide I need rest and peace more

in these times I start to guess when I might see him
when I can work it out

I bargain with myself
I cheat myself in these negotiations
wantonly

I even cheat the clock
insisting that the impossible
be possible
that
somehow
I transport myself
there and back again

I am reaching for him
in these moments
straining
at the bonds of the life
I worked so hard to build

imprisoned by the achievement of my dreams

greedy girl that I am
I want it all.

I want it all
















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5 comments:

  1. sinSeptember 5, 2012 at 5:58 AM

    "Imprisoned by the achievement of my dreams."

    I get this. I felt this. I think lots of moms feel this. I think you express it very well.

    Hug. More of your dreams will come your way. Really.

    -sin

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  2. dancingbarezSeptember 5, 2012 at 10:03 AM

    I agree, a lot of us moms do feel exactly this way. It can be torturous at times. hugs

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  3. AnonymousSeptember 5, 2012 at 1:14 PM

    I think all Moms feel that way some of the time.

    And you can have it all, you'll get there. I have complete confidence.

    hugs,

    aisha

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  4. Kitty the Submissive WifeSeptember 5, 2012 at 8:40 PM

    Very nice post - and I hope he answered the message affirmatively.

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  5. nillaSeptember 6, 2012 at 7:07 AM

    oh,

    so beautifully written.

    Love,

    nilla

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