promises

It was a surreal night

He had promised to take my ass this weekend

he's not a man to break promises

but the timing

was it too soon?

he made sure I brought lube

"in case it's needed"

and decided that when the time was right
it would be right
and I would defer to his judgement

It was a night of firsts

We soiled the beautiful comforter when I came in a gush earlier in the night

but I never expected

after careful lubrication
and probing my ass carefully
calmly

but with no prior discussion
no coaxing
no negotiating

just that calm confidence

he made his way inside me
pushing in the head of his cock
with some resistance
and a reminder to relax

and it felt

it felt strange
and I felt very possessed

and it felt good -- but not in the same way
in a

I don't know

It was it's own unique thing

and he turned me over -- and continued

fucking me
deeply
and I could feel it build

no time to be shocked
as I could feel the tension grow
and I asked to touch myself

and the second I did

I exploded -- in a flood

a porn star type of flood

next time we need a pile of towels
as I soaked the sheet -- the blanket and a sheet beneath that

afterwards
I'll admit
I shed some tears

yes

and he held me for a bit
and didn't make me explain the tears I didn't understand myself

and cuddled me back to myself