Saturday, May 25, 2013

Fuck me

tonight is a mommy's night out at the daycare

only thing is

KK got in BIG trouble at my mother's house -- and then refused to apologize properly
which sent my mother through the roof

so I put her in timeout

where she wailed as if I had pulled out her fingernails

seriously?

it's not my first day
I know your fucking tricks little girl

so now

time out has moved to my house
where it will continue until it's time to go to Mommy's night out

because I will NOT be punished by THEIR bad behavior (FL's been on red since 8am)

and all I can think is

fuck me
I should have put them in respite.

I really should have

it's my fault for thinking we could have one nice peaceful weekend

KK just has to be good until 6pm
and then we'll go
but every time she sticks her nose out of time out

I add to her (my) sentence

so

clearly I'm mad
and I shouldn't blog mad
I really shouldn't

and I should try to let things go
but
at the same time
I cannot have my house turned upside down 24/7

and part of this is that I discovered on Thursday that my agency has not told  CPS or anyone involved with the girls that I have given notice for them to go.

which concerns me.

12 days
I can do 12 day

I can.

right?

3 comments:

  1. Just keep in there! Its good to let of a bit of steam. Hope you got a good night out!12 days is just under 2 weeks sounds a bit better.
    Hugs Ashly xx

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  2. you can do anything... breathe, take some time for you, blog it if you need to, sometimes it helps. Seems like you need to know what your agency is doing.

    -sin

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  3. Of course you can blog mad!
    Who says you can't?
    This is your space.
    Use it as you need.

    o.g.

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