Cliff Notes

So - if you've followed the story - you know
but maybe there's a few who didn't follow me

I'll catch you up:

I am about a month away from finalizing the adoption - and things couldn't be better there

and I met someone - long distance -- and fell for him -- and he didn't fall for me the same way (but still cared for me)

and it was amazing
and painful

and now

over
mostly over
with some phantom pains here and there

and now

well

I'm sort of dating again
although not very successfully

and

feeling lonely

things will get better
I know they will

but today

I'm lonely

hugs

sfp