Giant Beavers

our good friend gave me some things to think about in regards to my crazy ass dream

oh -- you came here to read my blog in hope of a giant beaver shot?

um

well -- there were giant blond beavers in my dream --but not the kind that YOU'RE looking for -- perv -- move along.

so

where was I

oh -- the dream

so -- our friend has pointed out in the past that water tends to represent female energy -- well there's lot and lots of water in this dream

and this time she encouraged me to think about some of the other aspects

the MIL -- an aspect of myself that I don't like

and that there are 2 sorts of animals -- one that needs protecting -- and other animals that are self sustaining and powerful.

I don't think my subconscious is struggling with obscure things -- I think that my sexuality is very much at the forefront of my mind of late

wonder why

so -- here's my interpretation -- and fuck it -- it's my dream -- so it can mean what I want

I think it's about my recent journey --

I've been going through my house-- looking for my treasures -- revisiting the past essentially -- and really -- isn't that what I've been doing for months? Sifting through the ashes of my old relationship looking for things to carry with me into the future?

note -- I didn't find anything in the dream

I think my MIL -- is my repressed self. -- She's packed up and ready to move on -- she's a bit bitter and snarky about it -- change is hard.

I think the animal upstairs in the tank -- the otter that needs care -- is my sexual self -- what else could this be by the kiddie pool version of my submission --

and when I go downstairs to look for care for that otter?

I find myself waist deep in water (my feminine energy) -- and now instead of the otter swimming around -- it's these giant furry friendly beavers -- and they're smiling at me -- they're powerful (like sexuality set free?) and drench me (ahem -- oh -- nevermind-- I think I get that now)

and although I'm knocked off my feet -- we're all laughing and happy (except the MIL -- who makes a snarky remark)

seriously

I need to get laid.