Dream Baby

I was just reading over at Curiouser and Curiouser about Alice's brand new baby

she's a Christmas baby -- so that makes her what -- 3 weeks old?

wow

and I remembered the dream I had last night

well -- snippits

I was helping someone with her baby
and I was also going through the exhibit hall at
our corporate conference at the same time.

which -- well -- I can't tell you much

but the corporate conference we have each year
is really really cool

well - we were sitting chatting
really the women on either side of me were chatting and one of them
handed me her baby
they were talking over me
and so I took this tiny baby
which looked a bit more like
a monkey than a baby
and must have only
been about a pound
and
held it

I got bored with the chatters and went for a walk
through the exhibit hall

every once in awhile I
would get into something

I mean really into it
to the point where the dream
became about that new thing

and then I would say
WAIT -- WHERE'S THE BABY????

and start looking for it

I would find it upside down
in a basket or on a counter

pick it up
check on it
Blow some lint off
and move on

over and over

funny things dreams.

Interruption

So I have about 9 blog entries in the can

and

all of a sudden yesterday

internet and TV went out

so I called

and

they decided that the router was down
which it might have been --
I don't know

and they were mailing me another one to install

well

so last night
I lived the primative life

I could only read emails on the droid
or listen to Pandora on the droid's pathetic speakers
and

gasp

watch DVDs on my computer

how uncivilized.

Thank God I have my computer back
I'm not sure I could stand only being able to see
facebook on a 2" screen

ok

so -- I don't know if it's back or not -- but I'm going to take advantage while it's up and schedule my pre-written blogs

and -- it means I'm going to fall behind on

reading everyone else
commenting
responding

don't worry

I haven't fallen down a well

I'm just

internet challenged.

sfp

Make it Good

M told me that he

wanted me to write something filthy

just above my shaved pussy

we gave up on the "natural" look
so I was shaved clean

and

gah

I struggle with that ya'll

I'm not good at asking for things

and

I tell him I will

and then he says

Make it Good

nifty.

so I have to figure out

1)  what to ask for -- that I'm not already guaranteed to get
2)  How to write it on my pussy
3)  hope that it's good enough

what should I ask for?

that he fuck my ass? -- pah -- that's a forgone conclusion

that he tie me up and beat me with the belt -- also -- gonna happen

hmmm

hmm

so I settled with

Cum from pain and control

which I could barely fit

you'll remember that pretty early on

he had me

on my belly -- panties around ankles
being fucked against the bed

when I got up
to clean up my dirty man

I llooked at the bed

and was humiliated to see
dark marks

damn it -- I hate it when I soil the sheets
it's so

icky

and then I realize

he had ground off some of the sharpie writing

lol

did I get my wish?

stay tuned.

Soapy goodness

Saturday night

after he fucked my ass
and the cunt came out to play

he told me
while riding
while I was inbetween the me's
the slutty me
and the stuggling me

that when he was done with me
I was to clean the two of us up

he told me I was filthy
he knows I struggle with this
the dirtiness of anal

on all levels

When he was done with me
while I rested for a moment

I felt him
remove my panties
and my cuffs
and my stockings

all of which I had forgotten were still on
well
panties around my ankles but you get the picture

and I followed him to the shower

I love to wash him
the hot water pouring over him
I rub the soap against him
lathering his chest
and working my way down

cleaning him off
carefully
soaping and rinsing him off

making a thick lather
and rubbing my hands

from the base of his balls
up to the tip of his cock
one hand following the other

my thought to tease
to tempt

but as the lather grows thicker
I increase the pressure

my eyes on the prize

waiting
knowing

ready

ready for him to cum
hotly
against my thighs

I love to surprise him
to focus on him completely
with my hands

and I thought at the time

how brave I've become
that

he feels as much mine
as I feel his

that

I can take him
in hand
when I please

I don't think I've ever really felt this free
this confident

yes

I am his
and he is MINE.

Ass

M and I were a bit off

He had a terrible headache

and

well -- the cunt was in poor repair

but we decided that being together was more important

but that's not the point of this post

I want to talk about my ass

it's strange

because

I do want him to fuck my ass

I want it very much

it

nothing makes me feel more submissive

He had me get on the bed
on my belly
legs together

he conceded to my persnickety pussy
and used some lube
normally - I can provide more than enough

He pushed inside me

and

it hurts
and I'm whimpering

I'm fighting it
and he
says in that hot stern voice

relax

and

I try
and I eventually just
suck it up

and then suddenly

the cunt comes in
and
I'm fucking him
pushing back

and he says

ah -- there she is
THERE's my girl

and I'm
cumming

and cumming

so on a day
when

missionary sex was out of the question
bringing me to tears

I am happiest about
having my ass fucked
by the man I love.

Anxiety Dream

I was driving down a snowy road
really worried about how fast the people in front
and behind me are going

not wanting to be hit

and all of sudden
the vehicle from a cross road
loses control
and goes into a stream

I pull through the intersection -- and
I pause for a second deciding if they need my help
there are so many people around
and decide they do
if nothing else -- I have blankets in the car

the man runs out with 2 kids and sets them on the ground in the median
he runs back

I start getting blankets

there are 3 kids by the time I get there
and I start wrapping blankets around them
eventually there are 7 kids

(fortunately one of the blankets is electric so I can get them warm -- lol)

the kids tell me that the man was bad
he bought them
from their parents

so I take them home
and it's chaos

complete chaos

and the kids
well

the kids have these alien creatures
under their skin
that are vicious
horrible beast
they bite you when you take them out

and I become so involved in taking care of the kids
and trying to figure out what to do with 4 of them
because I am not licensed for 7
that I miss work
and start to get in trouble

and I'm filthy in this dream
absolutely covered in dirt
as is my house

and the kids and I are cleaning it up
(and it should be mentioned that we clearly love each other
and are growing close -- and laughing all this time)

and I get infected by the aliens under my skin as well
and I keep trying to put them in bags or something
so they can be studied

but when you take them out

they melt away.

and then -- I woke up.

*************

and I smiled when I woke up

because

this is a perfectly normal anxiety dream

I've known for some time that January would kick things off again
and

it's January

I find it comforting that my subconscious is freaking out

because

things are moving ahead again

and I couldn't be happier.

Last Night

M warned me he was out of sorts

I felt bad on the way here

thinking

no

KNOWING

that I sort of pressured him into this weekend
with the reality that we wouldn't see each other again soon enough

In spite of the fact
that due to parent issues
he couldn't spend the night
in fact -- in reality he left around 10

but I have to tell you

it was lovely

LOVELY

because he was out of sorts
and I was a bit under the weather

I was able to take care of him

OMG -- how much do I love that

I loved washing him in the hot shower
scrubbing my dirty man clean
and giving him a long long massage

these are the things that I think bring us closest
the continual connection
the sensual things

We got to talk
really talk
we do all the time
but there's something different
about being right there
curled next to him

dreaming about the future

so I sit here
on my cushy lovely bed
getting ready to head home

feeling nothing but
well being
and support
and love.